This one is for the dreamers

The end is always better than the beginning, it doesn't matter how it starts all that matters is how it ends.

Friday was the end or the beginning (depending on how you look at it) of a very arduous journey for me. I found out where I matched for residency. It was quite annoying to go through different variations of this conversation  about 1000 times for the past two years

Me: I am hopefully starting residency in June

Person: Really? Where?

Me: I don’t know. I find out in March

Person: Why.

Me: Grits teeth and begins a long winded explanation of the medical match process (an over the top job hunt) 

I thank Jesus  that I know where I am going, that I was given a chance to go where I am going and this portion of the journey is finally over.

I remember the dream I had and my resolute decision not to give up on it and God.

I remember when  I had both the admission letter for nursing school and medical school. One was easy, practical and reasonable, the other a blank letter, an untraveled road, risky, foolhardy and difficult. One was familiar nursing school  in Chicago, the other not so much medical school in a new city where I knew a handful of people.

I had nothing but I had God

And with God I had the family He gave me and my friends. 

And with God I had Hebrews  11, not a full understanding of it but grasping enough that faith in God can move mountains.Sometimes you just need to grasp a little to move. 

It wasn't easy.  I needed more than faith.   

Resilience

Dogged Determination

Steel in your spine

A fighting spirit.

And a strong will.

I have realized that there are two people who determine if you  will make it, if you will achieve that dream, get that promotion, start and succeed in that business , publish that novel…. Insert whatever dream you have/had.  I have realized God is always in your corner with a perpetual yes. The rest is up to you.

If you believe you can make it, you probably can.

If you believe you cant, you probably cannot

It does not matter if you are international student, a non traditional student, single mother, orphan, poverty stricken, rich ,  disabled…no matter what odds are against you

Your dream is between you and God., with him you can become an unstoppable force, a unit.

If God wants it, if you want it, pursue it like its already yours.

Pursue it with a single minded focus that is unparalleled.

No matter how many times you fall, get back up again and fight for your dream.

Do what you can humanely do and watch Him do what you cant do.

You will have to fight for it, it will not be handed to you on a platter.

Dream big and fight big because cliche or not you have a big God.

I am a walking and breathing testimony of this.

God loves dreamers.  God supports dreamers. God is a dreamer.

The question will you dream with Him?

Or let the world carve out an apportioned allocation to you based on your race, sex or social class?

Or based on what you don’t have instead of what you do have?

So on the day I had a choice to make between nursing and medicine, I choose to dream with my superficial understanding of Hebrews 11 but with an understanding that I had a God.

And with God nothing truly is impossible.

***** Does holy ghost dance off the stage******

 The mini sermon above is because this past week was match week and my dreams actually became a reality. Now sometimes I spontaneously screech in delight and run around the house every time my room mate isn't home. :)